Post by Amy on Jan 6, 2021 0:16:50 GMT -5
I'm still unsure between sp/so and so/sp but I wrote my thoughts down along with the Instincts video itself.
-Sp 'fitness' and 'rechecking' yourself sounds accurate
- I'm social last and contra flow and can still be considered 'too nice', but then again just my humour could be considered harsh by those closer to me, and I've heard varying answers on whether I'm too likely to go with the flow or that I'm being too selfish.
- When you talk about having a vague but personal idea about your role in society.
Would you say it's how you expect to belong (or not belong) to a group of some sort rather than a solid idea of the role itself (which could also me a matter of a low image fix but I'd have to mull it over)
- 'Wrong genes' does seem more contra flow. Also you definitely pay close attention to sp, but also the question of whether sp first would feel as easily filtrated by the environment. I don't think either conflict, especially with the murkiness of 9 first, but I feel that sp first would also be more prone to 'checking and defending the borders' habitually rather than being ready to admit an actual openness to vulnerability and suffering.
- 'Wanting to let the sp side go'. Yes. Though I could also be confusing this with the set of 'standards' and 'self restriction' from 1. I think it is an sp matter though for me in that I'll either put distance between myself and someone else (sometimes even if I think I'd rather not have that barrier for certain people) or just disengage completely (from either another person or activity) because I'm aware that I can easily 'steam roll' ahead not really in an aggressive manner, but just as a tendency to over do things. I'm not sure whether you have this 'stop/ start' quality though. Like I don't see you running back to 'fix the sp walls' the same way. You seem more consistent, which I don't see you as sp/sx atm, but I'm wondering if that's an indication for syn flow in general since the instincts don't seem to 'disagree' so much this case.
- I would likely recognize tension and where there's a lack of communication,and may even recognize where it's coming from. However, I feel I'm more likely to just see everyone living out their biases and judge that but not really grasp the 'bigger picture' as easily. Also, I'm probably more likely to feel frustrated (or even 9ishly unheard) if I either feel or see a direct negative impact from someone lacking awareness of their actions, but it's more within select interactions than the broader 'community' or 'the lineage'. Though I do see how people take their insecurities out on each other like a domino effect. Which again I can find definitely find frustrating. Though on the other hand I can somewhat respect those who are so unbothered by others (or at least act like it) that they are comfortable (what others would consider) 'overdoing' themselves. I feel like this can conflict with 'what's the greater good' here that comes with higher social. You come across as having an irregular awareness of the social instinct, which could point to sp/so rather than social first. Than again I hardly think about even just the philosophy of how something like typology can be dangerous. I can 'get it', but it wouldn't be the first thing to interest me. Now, I could see more as to why to having the collective mind so to say interact with these newly ingrained biases could end up being damaging, but even then I still wouldn't be 'seeking out' examples or philosophies of where this could go wrong and would instead mostly assume it's an individual responsibility to use discernment in both giving and receiving the information. You also said you notice those things more when it effects you, so again that could point to sp first but I'm not so sure yet.
- 'Going at it alone' seem higher sp in terms of feeling 'separate' from groups. I think there is a difference between feeling 'separate from' (sp) and 'ill suited for' the group (anti social awareness but social nonetheless) though. If you're either sp/so or so/sp than these may be hard to pull apart since I feel like you've expressed both so far.
- Also the awareness of who 'most people' even are and maybe even depending on how easily you see an opportunity to 'kiss ass' is already pretty social in itself to me. Which could indicate so/sp despite the 'do it yourself' attitude.
- Not sure if 'the more insecure I am the more I dislike people is so much an indication of instinct stacking as it is maybe 3w4 'resentment from being born in 'exile'.
- I like the thermodynamic comparison for sx. I don't even consciously see myself as that aware to whether other people are attracted to me until I'm looking for it. Either because I'm interested or I very intentionally mean to show no interest. I'll be honest though, sx as 'soft' did not cross my mind. 'Bleeding ', 'merging', 'feeding', 'blending' depending on the whole stacking. Even so/sx seems 'fizzy' but idk about soft. I may have to come back to sx though. Especially since 'chemistry' isn't just a matter of relations with other people.
-Sp 'fitness' and 'rechecking' yourself sounds accurate
- I'm social last and contra flow and can still be considered 'too nice', but then again just my humour could be considered harsh by those closer to me, and I've heard varying answers on whether I'm too likely to go with the flow or that I'm being too selfish.
- When you talk about having a vague but personal idea about your role in society.
Would you say it's how you expect to belong (or not belong) to a group of some sort rather than a solid idea of the role itself (which could also me a matter of a low image fix but I'd have to mull it over)
- 'Wrong genes' does seem more contra flow. Also you definitely pay close attention to sp, but also the question of whether sp first would feel as easily filtrated by the environment. I don't think either conflict, especially with the murkiness of 9 first, but I feel that sp first would also be more prone to 'checking and defending the borders' habitually rather than being ready to admit an actual openness to vulnerability and suffering.
- 'Wanting to let the sp side go'. Yes. Though I could also be confusing this with the set of 'standards' and 'self restriction' from 1. I think it is an sp matter though for me in that I'll either put distance between myself and someone else (sometimes even if I think I'd rather not have that barrier for certain people) or just disengage completely (from either another person or activity) because I'm aware that I can easily 'steam roll' ahead not really in an aggressive manner, but just as a tendency to over do things. I'm not sure whether you have this 'stop/ start' quality though. Like I don't see you running back to 'fix the sp walls' the same way. You seem more consistent, which I don't see you as sp/sx atm, but I'm wondering if that's an indication for syn flow in general since the instincts don't seem to 'disagree' so much this case.
- I would likely recognize tension and where there's a lack of communication,and may even recognize where it's coming from. However, I feel I'm more likely to just see everyone living out their biases and judge that but not really grasp the 'bigger picture' as easily. Also, I'm probably more likely to feel frustrated (or even 9ishly unheard) if I either feel or see a direct negative impact from someone lacking awareness of their actions, but it's more within select interactions than the broader 'community' or 'the lineage'. Though I do see how people take their insecurities out on each other like a domino effect. Which again I can find definitely find frustrating. Though on the other hand I can somewhat respect those who are so unbothered by others (or at least act like it) that they are comfortable (what others would consider) 'overdoing' themselves. I feel like this can conflict with 'what's the greater good' here that comes with higher social. You come across as having an irregular awareness of the social instinct, which could point to sp/so rather than social first. Than again I hardly think about even just the philosophy of how something like typology can be dangerous. I can 'get it', but it wouldn't be the first thing to interest me. Now, I could see more as to why to having the collective mind so to say interact with these newly ingrained biases could end up being damaging, but even then I still wouldn't be 'seeking out' examples or philosophies of where this could go wrong and would instead mostly assume it's an individual responsibility to use discernment in both giving and receiving the information. You also said you notice those things more when it effects you, so again that could point to sp first but I'm not so sure yet.
- 'Going at it alone' seem higher sp in terms of feeling 'separate' from groups. I think there is a difference between feeling 'separate from' (sp) and 'ill suited for' the group (anti social awareness but social nonetheless) though. If you're either sp/so or so/sp than these may be hard to pull apart since I feel like you've expressed both so far.
- Also the awareness of who 'most people' even are and maybe even depending on how easily you see an opportunity to 'kiss ass' is already pretty social in itself to me. Which could indicate so/sp despite the 'do it yourself' attitude.
- Not sure if 'the more insecure I am the more I dislike people is so much an indication of instinct stacking as it is maybe 3w4 'resentment from being born in 'exile'.
- I like the thermodynamic comparison for sx. I don't even consciously see myself as that aware to whether other people are attracted to me until I'm looking for it. Either because I'm interested or I very intentionally mean to show no interest. I'll be honest though, sx as 'soft' did not cross my mind. 'Bleeding ', 'merging', 'feeding', 'blending' depending on the whole stacking. Even so/sx seems 'fizzy' but idk about soft. I may have to come back to sx though. Especially since 'chemistry' isn't just a matter of relations with other people.